This takes the cake 2

dec 27

Imagine. A camera hidden in every place you go. A mic for every sound you make. you're the center of attention for a lot of beings. The show of which you're the unknowing star is called, 'a sad case of light dispersion' the character, you, are shown as a rare example. a person who is overflowing with feelings and emotions, overflowing with love and good feelings. but finding no outlets for them other then doing some things all those around that person think are wrong things. but to that person.. they're something else. he thinks all the others are deluded, because that person's seen something in them no one around him can even comprehend, because none of them ever did that, no one he really knew did that so he felt a bit isolated and cut off. it was like believing in science in a fantasy world.

so anyway. that person is the star of the show 'a sad case of light dispersion' that person is shown as having so many feelings and thoughts all the fucking time with so much intensity that won't go away. the person tries to let any other person see only a small fraction of those feelings. even that often leads to sad endings. so the feelings have to be swallowed up. some feelings are focused and channeled into beings the person knows, friends. that only takes so much time. the rest of the time, giving up and just letting the emotions come out however they will. not on any other person of course, just.. thrown overboard, cause having found no receiver, they're no use. so a lot of feelings go to waste, all that life and energy just pouring out onto empty barren rocky shores.

so much , for nothing.

wow that magic ball was good.

and in the last post. if i made no sense, i was trying to get across the idea that in previous incarnations... a lot of stuff i would have to go into , just that.. previous incarnations, percieved reality was much more INTENSE. in all aspects. and emotional sensitivity was INTENSE too. to top it of, the nature of lives in that reality was also very INTENSE. life was fantastic, wonderful, aweinspiring, horrifying, beautiful and a lot of other emotions, in some state or other at a very HIGH INTENSITY, al these emotions make up normal time in a normal life. life is full of mind boggling adventures and things. and in a reality above that, all these things but even more.